And the storm rages on!
There is a big one inside me, right now. I don't quite know how to contain it. It's a very confusing thought to ponder upon because everything is so hazy and blurry and I can't see clear through anything. I have always had a strong clarity of thought since I know how to express and articulate the happenings in my life. But I just don't feel so confident or self-assured about my strong convictions these days. It's like a bizarre dream I am in, only I can't see what it ends in and where it leads me ahead. I have always, always had a very clear journey chartered in front of me, I have visualised the paths that lead me to my goals. I have been headstrong about having a desire, a dream and a vision and the fiercest of beliefs that I am going to make this all come true. Down these years, sometimes my focus has loosened its hold upon the dreams and the passion too, so I feel haywire now. I am constantly looking for inspiration from outside. It no longer fires me from within me and this is not me. I have been supremely confident and a know-it-all about my achievements and my lakshya. Only it doesn't feel any more so. I have begun to see everything in three shades now. Black, more black and darker black everywhere. It's quite a bad feeling about oneself as an individual.
But this has to stop and it is stopping now with me writing this here. That light inside me is still shining and alive and kicking a storm throwing away the dark. Yes, no longer morose ramblings any more. I reclaim myself. My positive spirit, my fire and my determination. Nothing can stop me from tearing through and embracing the light. Let the dark go. Let the unpleasantness go. Make an effort. Sing if you must but push these demons away. They don't deserve an abode in anybody's mind. What we all need is the shining sun in our universe. Let it go. Let yourself go. Take a chance. Let it go.
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