Such a calm, contented day today. Like every year, when this day comes there is an excitement, barrage of good wishes from friends and family and the quiet celebration with my loved ones. Last year was a lockdown birthday and so is this year. I am full of gratitude for good health, and peace of mind. I have had the means to indulge my spirits in Art and Poetry, conversations with some of my constant friends since forever. What more could I ask?
And, yet like every year, I think of my ambitions, my desires and goals and everything that I wish to accomplish with the same fervour. April comes and goes too soon. It marks a time that gives me reason to go ahead, something about the excruciating long lazy hot days puts everything else in perspective. I wouldn't have pegged myself a seasonal person, but I am. My moods aggravate and elevate with the change in seasons. Perhaps I am so since childhood but only understanding being like this in my adulthood. Funny and amusing that as I go back into memories of the changes in me, the realisation of my talking to self being such a constant hits me, not as hard as I think. I have been silent, engulfing my thoughts and anguish, even misery for as long as I remember. Never opening up to anyone, and yet here I find myself voice with such strength and relaxation. There's a solace in words, something that has stayed with me since I know about me being me. When children read books, they don't just travel in new worlds but also understand the connection with the ones they are in. I believe it happened with me and for the best part of everything that makes me now, it has given me reasons to be so.
Today, and any other day since I tend to become so reflective with the slightest provocation to my sensitivity, I know there is something better than this. I shall fasten on to my hope and belief that there is a vast world out there waiting for me to take over. May this optimism always stay within me and may dreaming never be only a childhood facet.
To birthdays and being young!
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