Saturday croonings..

It's been a while to have engaged with my thoughts here. The humdrum of life and tapping keys here finally comes together again today on a Saturday. As I kept searching for a journal to pen down my thoughts, a look at the calendar took me back in time. I went through a meeting with my friends after a long year since the pandemic forced us down to be isolated. And then, last night I had a rather surreal dream where I met one of my oldest friends since college and it was such an exuberant meet where she appeared out of sight somehow. Then, came another friend that I just don't get to talk to anymore. It's strange how my morning turned out to reminisce about them and then I read some beautiful verses on pale pink flowers dashing through my screen. 

This summer is making me feel the serenity of time. The heat is almost unbearable but there's art and poetry to engulf with and I am leaving no stone unturned to get together my senses in enjoying these moments. Text conversations with a friend over the last few days are providing the much needed boost to my thoughts too. It's completely strange that I who loves to talk has now found solace in long text conversations as well. I remember a time when birthdays meant long midnight phone calls, and feeling that happiness as we made the other person feel special. Have we really lost the art of conversation, of talking, emoting and expressing our feelings? Some days make me feel so mechanized with the constant buzz of virtual closeness that I wish I had more control over and better management. Alas, the whole world has gone digital now and much as I wish and hope, there's no hiding from it. And, yet I still treasure receiving a personalized email, a small note, a quick Hi! in this busy virtual world. I hope I don't give up my access to conversations on a phone, that listening to people share their stories with emotions shall still elicit compassion and kindness and positive response than just liking them with a button, an emoticon on a virtual medium in cyberspace. I hope to channel this well found serenity into a wellness that extends beyond myself to all others I care for. 

The pandemic has bought forth the necessity for a revival in human connections and it has certainly allowed us enough time during this lockdown that has extended for more than a year to prioritize our lives. As I look back into bittersweet moments, times where I was at my lowest ebb and finding solace in art & poetry, I come back with a sense of gratitude for everything that happened. It gave me life lessons in health, humility and humor as well. There are still things that are yet to be accomplished, achieved and attempted and the silver lining is that there is hope in me and immense energy for everything to come. Here's to many more days of good attitude, positive well being, kindred spirits and an ever growing outlook towards life! Amen.