FIRSTS!!!

Everything that's a first carry precious memories with them. I've had a lot of good firsts and many bad firsts too. Or, they weren't bad- I just couldn't acclimatise myself to those firsts.

First day in a new high school was sombre. I was unsure of everything. uncertain too. Of course, the adulation that came my way because of my excellent academic record made everything seem fine. Over time, things went well. When we are younger, somehow adjustment doesn't seem to be a problem.

First day in an Architecture school was also very uncertain. There was a crowd and everyone looked so hefty and tall and just so big that for a moment I felt like a school kid starting afresh. Five years down the line, every year of school then felt like an extension from the last term. Nothing changed.

First day in a new city at a competitive services training center didn't bring out any emotions, except that I had a feeling of calm over it. As routine set in, the atmosphere seemed healthy and quiet. It was starkly different and extreme in character than the buzzy metropolis I have lived for a long time.

And Now, another first.

Sometimes  I feel, I live on the tide of time. I sail with it. There has never been a moment when I haven't created 'future' in my mind or haven't experienced the seconds flying past in solitude.

Life presents us with failures more often than success; in fact, that's a question to ponder upon. Who defines 'success' and 'failures' or the happiness quotient? Are we here to learn about being human or to grasp the key of running in the rat race to nowhere?

This 'first' that I'm currently experiencing, will stay forever in my memory for two reasons: Someone who should be happy isn't and my emotional strings get tugged so often at reminiscing past events.

I hope people realise that happiness is only real when its shared and it could mean a lot to hear encouraging and happy words from people we care for and hope they do the same.