My brain is fried with information overload, discussions on varied topics from architecture to gender theories and my Civil Service Examination studies. I truly can't seem to handle this immense pressure.
Today especially just feels so hectic and stressed. I was reading interviews of UPSC candidates and it made me realise what a great lot of hard work I've to put in. It's not easy. And, since I don't think I'm exceptionally brilliant, studying hard and with determination is the only go right now.
I just feel too lost sometimes. There are distractions- yes, but these mostly seem to be the vague kind. I'm not someone to be easily influenced by material happiness or momentary pleasures of life. Yes, I do get affected a lot by failure- to perform, to fulfill expectations, to outdo myself. I'm that 'go getter' kind who also is scared of giving up midway and tends to have serious doubts about her own capabilities. But, I am also someone who never gives up, despite feeling the blues. THERE IS ALWAYS A NEXT TIME, says my Dad and I've grown up listening to this adage of his, which also somehow marks my never give up spirit. Yes there are times of distress when I feel and have felt in the past to be the most dumbest person around. It usually happens when we compare our situation to our peers. Not a very helpful tactic, I say. Believe in yourself. Trust is very important. And who else can you trust but yourself the most! Also, comparison sucks. It does. Don't look for similarities in your peers. Does no good for our self-esteem. Our self-worth is not measured by our success or monetary wealth or our physical assets. Be yourself, no matter how hard the world looks down on you, or you are drilled to death. You are meant to get through and above all the muddle. Just two words of advice to yourself- Belief and Trust, in yourself.
And, with writing this advisory column, I feel rejuvenated and so clear in my head. Writing does help. I'm off to studying with a new vigour and focussed energies. Yes, WE CAN DO IT!
Today especially just feels so hectic and stressed. I was reading interviews of UPSC candidates and it made me realise what a great lot of hard work I've to put in. It's not easy. And, since I don't think I'm exceptionally brilliant, studying hard and with determination is the only go right now.
I just feel too lost sometimes. There are distractions- yes, but these mostly seem to be the vague kind. I'm not someone to be easily influenced by material happiness or momentary pleasures of life. Yes, I do get affected a lot by failure- to perform, to fulfill expectations, to outdo myself. I'm that 'go getter' kind who also is scared of giving up midway and tends to have serious doubts about her own capabilities. But, I am also someone who never gives up, despite feeling the blues. THERE IS ALWAYS A NEXT TIME, says my Dad and I've grown up listening to this adage of his, which also somehow marks my never give up spirit. Yes there are times of distress when I feel and have felt in the past to be the most dumbest person around. It usually happens when we compare our situation to our peers. Not a very helpful tactic, I say. Believe in yourself. Trust is very important. And who else can you trust but yourself the most! Also, comparison sucks. It does. Don't look for similarities in your peers. Does no good for our self-esteem. Our self-worth is not measured by our success or monetary wealth or our physical assets. Be yourself, no matter how hard the world looks down on you, or you are drilled to death. You are meant to get through and above all the muddle. Just two words of advice to yourself- Belief and Trust, in yourself.
And, with writing this advisory column, I feel rejuvenated and so clear in my head. Writing does help. I'm off to studying with a new vigour and focussed energies. Yes, WE CAN DO IT!
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