Sorry, Dad

SORRY, Dad.

I really am very Sorry.

For disappointing you.

I owe you many apologies for all the grief I have caused you over the years, for all the times I've failed you. I can't tell you how ashamed I am to have underperformed and failed. I have not been a good daughter. I should have made you proud. Somehow my choices after academics have been a gamble and it has not paid off well at all. I still remember the internship you insisted I complete, but I didn't because I was an idiot back then. Later, I wallowed in my misery for months. I know it was painful for you to see me like that, but more painful was the fact that I was a disobedient kid. I really am truly sorry for not listening to you, for not taking your advice, for not consulting you. Somewhere down the line, I was thinking of myself as a grown up who could take my own decisions which went horribly wrong.

I promise I won't let you down. We are not open in expressing our emotions freely, hence this letter here. Otherwise, I would have said all this to you in person and also cried my heart out. But, I have decided. No more crying. No more misery. I will excel and make you beam with pride. That's MY promise to you. A daughter's promise.