Hola, Amigas!

I have made a new friend and we have been talking a lot lately on varied topics. Today we succumbed to nostalgia and went into the most animated conversation I have had in recent times. This thought touched my mind about how I fall easily into a candid confession with people I trust. Whether I do it because I have this propensity to disclose everything that's on my mind or whether I do it because I distrust my mind, is something I am not going to ponder too much upon! Not without first writing about it. It's very strange but not really difficult to think about how I have been penning down thoughts here to a blind world, people that I can't see and of course, who don't know me in person. At least, the ones who do also know that I could write here and then also still be afflicted with my emotions.

What makes us write to a faceless crowd on the internet? Is it the freeing of fear where we simply exist and not feel ashamed to bare it all? I clearly remember how I began writing here and what it did to me in times where there was no one to talk to and take in my misery. Long ago, a friend had mentioned how we do not need people for our every emotion and misery. I had detested that thought back then but now realize how true it is. Once we become dependent on people for dumping our misery and anguish even though they are our loved ones, we are only pushing them further away from us. I always, always have this nagging reality reminding me to not be a pushover and yet I end up becoming one. This is me. I do feel that knowing people has saved me from a lot of things that could have gone wrong. Because the mind overthinks and overshoots so much, it's always such a blessing to have that one friend suddenly call us out of the blue and change the temperament. Thank you my many such amigas for being there, for remembering me and picking up the phone for conversations when I thought I couldn't. 

I know ages later I shall treasure all the written words here and be thankful to whatever powers there may be that found me friends and gave me vigour!