Dance Dance!

Today, I felt the impulse to dance! Somebody in the adjacent building was playing loud music and those were hip-hop beats. I instantly found myself on my feet and got grooving to the music. 

I am NOT a dance person. But I do feel beats and rhythm when I hear some. I have never tried myself with dancing.. not even a little. I ran away from my college prom night because I did not want to embarrass myself with all the good dancers that night. I was told later, it was a smashing event. Oh! How I regretted it for a while! For some strange reason, I think I might be a clumsy dancer. Although, it has never been proved simply because I maintain my calm in public places where dancing takes place, like weddings, birthday parties, festivities. But I would love to dance without any inhibitions.. go wild and crazy with the music and good spirits. 

                                                   

Perfection has ruined the joy of so many activities. I wish it were simpler to live than talking about ways of keeping it simple. All these lists that speak of dancing as a therapy- I wish it actually applied to me. I once attended a workshop on Women in Public Spaces and one of the activities we did at the end of the session was listening to the music played and dancing freely. It was about listening and feeling the music then allowing your body to follow the beats. But I could not feel that music there. I was clueless as to what to do. So, I ended up just waving my hands and it was utterly embarrassing. I laugh over it now, but it was terrible.

In school and college festivals, I signed up for every activity even dramas, but never dance. My assessment about my dancing skills killed all my chances of really trying the art form. When I watch Ballet and Classical performances, I am moved by the grace and elegant dance moves. But I am rather hopeful that one day I'll conquer this irrational fear and get up and dance. I will. I know it. Till then, I'll secretly keep dancing in my head. Haha.