I fail to understand why people get angry so often and so quickly? And, why do they scream at the top of their lungs? Do they not realize, they are storing all that hatred in themselves and by screaming at others, it not only affects the other person but themselves most?
It disturbs me to a great deal if my inner peace is busted, say early morning, while I am boarding a train and some woman randomly insults me and pulls off a meany comment and keeps on going...or, my younger sibling starts throwing a tantrum if she cannot find her study books (which she was studying from the previous night), or her stack of project papers or even her clothes! Most disgusting is when she starts arguing in loud tones with her mother.
At times like these, if I am present in the room where such loud aggression is seen, I try to be calm; or leave the room; or mostly just try to ignore the ongoing hullabaloo. I remember once visiting a family member and as soon as I entered their house, the teen daughter was violently throwing things on the ground and simultaneously screaming at her mother. That was the most disturbing event I witnessed. I frequently feel the need to have peace consumed like small drug intakes, its so essential.
A few years ago, when I was in architecture school, during a design studio, a professor repeatedly kept tearing my design sheets; after 3 such occurrences, I snapped into a particularly angry fit and crumpled the design tracing before he could do it. That took him by surprise, and my other group members too. He calmly told me to not be so depressed over design failures. I had such a bad day! After that session, I never ever had a temper breakdown or any public showdown in any of the studios. I think it was a much needed thing at that time.
As a kid, when I would get upset or angry I would silently talk to myself in my head. I found it extremely helpful. Even today, at times when I am disturbed I talk to myself- it leaves a calming atmosphere. A friend had once told me to keep questioning myself and not bother looking for their answers. I find it so useful now.
At Vipassana (Meditation) in Igatpuri, Nashik, one starts by concentrating on breathing in and out so as to create inner calm. Something as simple as breathing and observing the rhythms of our breath has a wonderful effect. There are a thousand thoughts running helter skelter and colliding in the mind, but this will last only for a few days until one gets accustomed to observing the breath. After 4 days of Aana Pana (breathing exercise), I felt at ease on the 5th day, when I felt calm and nothing interrupted my mind. Felt completely at peace like serene waters. 10 incredible days of getting to know my peaceful self, has created a difference in my life. I feel that I can almost filter sounds/ emotions/ reactions now. Life is much better!
It disturbs me to a great deal if my inner peace is busted, say early morning, while I am boarding a train and some woman randomly insults me and pulls off a meany comment and keeps on going...or, my younger sibling starts throwing a tantrum if she cannot find her study books (which she was studying from the previous night), or her stack of project papers or even her clothes! Most disgusting is when she starts arguing in loud tones with her mother.
At times like these, if I am present in the room where such loud aggression is seen, I try to be calm; or leave the room; or mostly just try to ignore the ongoing hullabaloo. I remember once visiting a family member and as soon as I entered their house, the teen daughter was violently throwing things on the ground and simultaneously screaming at her mother. That was the most disturbing event I witnessed. I frequently feel the need to have peace consumed like small drug intakes, its so essential.
A few years ago, when I was in architecture school, during a design studio, a professor repeatedly kept tearing my design sheets; after 3 such occurrences, I snapped into a particularly angry fit and crumpled the design tracing before he could do it. That took him by surprise, and my other group members too. He calmly told me to not be so depressed over design failures. I had such a bad day! After that session, I never ever had a temper breakdown or any public showdown in any of the studios. I think it was a much needed thing at that time.
As a kid, when I would get upset or angry I would silently talk to myself in my head. I found it extremely helpful. Even today, at times when I am disturbed I talk to myself- it leaves a calming atmosphere. A friend had once told me to keep questioning myself and not bother looking for their answers. I find it so useful now.
At Vipassana (Meditation) in Igatpuri, Nashik, one starts by concentrating on breathing in and out so as to create inner calm. Something as simple as breathing and observing the rhythms of our breath has a wonderful effect. There are a thousand thoughts running helter skelter and colliding in the mind, but this will last only for a few days until one gets accustomed to observing the breath. After 4 days of Aana Pana (breathing exercise), I felt at ease on the 5th day, when I felt calm and nothing interrupted my mind. Felt completely at peace like serene waters. 10 incredible days of getting to know my peaceful self, has created a difference in my life. I feel that I can almost filter sounds/ emotions/ reactions now. Life is much better!
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